In my youth I've had a few rap-rhyme compositions I've kept for myself. That was when I was into hip hop & rap music (not the explicit/dirty ones though, just the clean ones... I was already an LDS then). So when I met Pam, I was so excited I wanted to compose one for her. But then I realized she was a lot more special than that, so I didn't. Instead, I made her something else with a little extra sprinkle of love from the heart.
Today, I'd like to bring her back in time - almost 16 years ago. March 9, 1993 when she gave me a love note that I've kept in my wallet ever since. It's been folded three-way and unfortunately the 2 sides that has been exposed all this time is now mostly unreadable. No, 2/3 of it has not been 'sealed'. It has faded enough over time so that much of it is hard to read. The part of it that has been folded inward though is still pretty clear. It's actually the bottom part and it reads, "Please never change, if you do, make sure it's for the better." At that time I thought, "Now there's my first commandment from my future wife!"
Anyway, as I went home that night I wrote down my thoughts at the back of her note. I know I have shared this to her the next day we were together, but today I'd like to rededicate this to her. It is a special prayer I made for her that I still keep w/ me in my wallet, even now. These may be simple words, nevertheless, straight from the heart...
"Heavenly Father up above
I come before thee so much grateful for thine love.
At times I wonder how loving thou art
For even with my weaknesses thou art never apart.
I know I have offended thee many a times
And today I pray that thine mercy be mine.
I thank thee Dear Father for blessings thou hast bestowed
Through which thine compassion I behold.
Most especially Father, for blessing me
With the girl I've been waiting for patiently.
Pamela has been one of my greatest blessings from thee
And I pray that thou would bless her everyday for me.
Guide her & protect her wherever she may be
And bless her to know of my love for her with all sincerity.
I pray Father that thou would help me to be
The kind of man she wants of me.
But most of all, that I may always be
Worthy for the love she has for me."
- elmer poquita 09Mar93
A line from a song once said, "Always keep a little prayer in your pocket and you're sure to see the light..." I do have a prayer in my pocket, only this time I'm not just grateful for Pam but also for our son Edric.
Happy Valentines Pangga!
